In the morning I open my eyes and you are the first thing I see: my little boy with kind eyes and an amazing smile. You look at me and it seems that seeing me is for you the greatest joy of all. When we play together you sometimes stop just to look at me and to tell me that you love me. I see how amazed you are when I make something new with the toys and how curious you become every time I tell you I have prepared a new activity for us to try
Through your eyes, I am so great and loveable that you make my heart melt each time I understand how much you admire and love me. I am just an ordinary woman, but you see me differently as if you were the most wonderful mom in the world. Your love is so big and sincere that you don’t see my negative parts, you don’t judge and you never stop showing me how much I mean to you. Your love is the most beautiful love I have every received and I am so grateful for it.
I sometimes look at you and your dad and I see the same unconditional love. I see you welcoming him when he comes back from work and your eyes are full of joy just because he is home. You look up to him and you try to make everything he makes just because you see him as a perfect dad and you love him so much.
Through your eyes, we are so special! I am so thankful for every moment when I see love and admiration in your eyes because I know that this will not last forever. One day you will be old enough to see our negative parts, to judge our mistakes and to understand we are just two ordinary people and not the superheroes we seem today. I can only hope that when that moment comes you will also know that we love you the most and that our mistakes and defects are also part of who we are. I hope you will not judge us for what we did wrong as parents or at least that you will forgive us for what we didn’t know to do better.
We are living now a wonderful stage in your life when we are the center of your universe and the people you need most in your life, but I know this will not least forever. I just want to keep in my memory the way you look at me now, the love I can read in your eyes and the feeling that someone loves me so deeply and unconditional.
I thank you for giving me the chance to be so important in your life and to be part of your kind and warm heart! I want you to know that you will always be part of my heart and I will love you as strong and deeply as now for the rest of my life!
You are teaching me the most wonderful lessons about what unconditional love really means and the way you love me is the proof that love doesn’t need perfection, it only needs an open heart! And the way you look at me now makes me want to be a better person every day, hoping that over the years you will always remain so proud of me and so amazed by everything we discover together!
The #LettersToMyLittleBoy series are letters I write for my son about all the wonderful things he brings into my life. I don’t know if he will read them some day and I don’t even know if I want him to, but they are ways of writing down at least a little bit of what I feel as a mom.